Saturday, June 24, 2006
24th June, finally all my exams are over, and i am looking myself on my webcam, oh my gosh, my dark eye rings are dark~!!! kekeke time to get some sleep, on by the way i will be back on the 25th~!!! woohooo~~!!!
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2:15 AM
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
三更半夜Savish的我 只听见Ojisan骑着单车卖着馒头
Yohji Han Desu 你究竟在哪里
难道你又是在Kurabu唱着Nakashi呦 oh 不知道你还爱不爱我
我哪里做错 请你快告诉我 我打不还手 我骂不还口
只要你说一声 "Ai shitteru"别说Sayonara Hitori De
孤苦伶仃的我 苦等着Anata两年三个月没有消息
快要发疯 我听到门铃声 Sumimasen宅急便说他要找的在隔壁
oh 我怀疑你已经不爱我 想要离开我 我求你不要走
我为你减肥 我为你喝醉 请不要说你已不爱我亲爱的Anata
(Anata Anata oh , please don't go ! )
我要你知道 我永远爱你 如果失去你 我就活不下去
我们最Match 我不会怪你 因为有一天你会看见我爬出电视
this song is so cute
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10:19 PM
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Monday, June 19, 2006
It is the final countdown to my paper~!!! muahaha blog later,
GTG study~!!!
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12:30 AM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
Wow, it is 4.38 am, my alarm just rang, kekeke i am waiting for my baby's sms to tell me that she is home already, i miss her so much. Nothing much happen today just the normal slacking and a bit of reading books, but most of the time is spent in the bed slacking and lazing around.
Ok gonna go call her now, blog later~!!
One word for today: Procrastinate
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2:46 AM
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Time apart is so torturing, 10 more days till i see my baby again. I have already started packing my stuff, lol. I am gonna stay alone for the next semester, hee, can't wait, but first i will have to go back to sg, into my baby's arms.
I have been seperated from her for some time now, and it is so torturing. I miss her so much~! Jia you, 10 more days to go. Baby i love you~!!!
World Cup fever is on~!!! And i am getting Fever too ~!!! lol
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
World Cup Fever is on right now, was watching the Japan Vs Australia Match last night, Japan deserved the lost, cause their finishing was sloppy, had breakfast at a cafe this morning and the cafe owner was like go Aussie go~! lol
I miss my baby so much, i think i need to rest more le, getting feverish lately, must be the blardy KFC that i ate last night, guess the Aussies are just trying to poison me lol, just kidding.
Time to eat my dinner and then go badminton, hmmm in my state, i think i go there for fun only :)
Blog later.
EuGeNe â¥
4:00 PM
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Monday, June 12, 2006
My baby, sent me this photo from the fitting room, this dress looks absolutely fabulous on her, I was stunned when i saw this picture, Now i miss her even more. Baby, I love you~!!
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4:56 PM
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Ok I am Farking pissed with my roommate, i was talking to my gf on a long distance call, and i wasn't talking loudly or anything, in fact i was like whispering. He got up and msn me this
'hey, is it possible for you to call april at her house? actually it's quite disturbing and i really cannot rest well all these while. i think i need proper rest for my studies. is it possible for you to compromise to me during this examination period? i really need proper environment to rest and study yeah? i'm sorry if i'm rude. but yeah, i really cannot rest well.'
What the FARK~!!!
First thing first, you are stressed, so? you think you are the only one taking exam? you think you are the only one that need proper rest? I paid for the rent too, Do I even complain when i slept like 5 am and you woke up at 7 am and start slamming stuff? If you can't handle the stress that is your own farking problem. You farking retard~! Stop blaming people for your stuff.
This is super farking insulting to me, compromise to you? i been compromising the whole semester, and yes you are farking Rude~!! you Moron~!
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4:48 PM
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
hahaha another lazy sunday for me, 1 more week will my first paper, i think i will have to buck up now, but that will only be after tonight, no way am i going to study on a sunday night, what's more, world cup is on~!!! hehehe k k time to go watch the game now~!! Blog Later
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8:42 PM
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
1 word for today: Lazy
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11:16 PM
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Friday, June 09, 2006
So many happy memories for the past few days, time spent with her goes by so fast, how i wish i have the remote control from the movie 'click' then i can just press either the slow motion button or the pause button.
Went to FCUK and some other factories outlet for shopping and guess what? I spent till my card limit~!! and transaction doesn;t approve lol. Just got back to newcastle, now that she has gone home, my torture has began, 16 days without her, and 16 days of studies and exams
Guess it is time for me to buck up and study hard :) well, time to go get a rest and then start my studying~! * i hope *
Missing her like crazy
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1:51 PM
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Monday, June 05, 2006
I have moved on in my life, everything is fine now. Finally, the ordeal is over,
it is like a stone lifted from my chest.
All this would not be possible if, that special someone is not there for me,
she has been so supportive, listening to all my whinings when she herself has some trouble to deal with.
Now, she has 1 last submission, and i shall be there for her. She is flying on the coming friday, and i will be left here in newcastle preparing for my exams.
I will be missing her like crazy.
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4:24 PM
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Friday, June 02, 2006
Friday, 2nd of June, 6.30am
Location : April's place
Couldn't stay at home, too much things has happen for the past few hours.
She wants me back, why do this has to happen each and everytime i decided to move on?
She told me another drastic news again, she got together with my childhood friend.
Then call and cried on the phone,why? because my childhood friend dumped her.
She thought that me and my childhood friend conspired against her, what an insult,
added to injury. I knew that this will happen, but she insisted that she will not fall for him,
Blah Blah Blah...telling me how much she loves me, but dun you think,
it is just a little bit too late? to tell me that now? why couldn't she tell me earlier?
when i was still trying to hang on to whatever that is left. No, she has to wait till all
this has happened, then she comes crying to me?
if she has the cheek to get another bf after we broke up, why does she wants me back?
she threaten me with death, and took a whole row of panadol. what is it that she wants from me?
All this time, is she toying me? can someone tell me? Someone says give her false hope, but
to me, that will just make things worse when i get back to sg. I just wanna get this over with,
i wanna move on with my life, i wanna be free from all this, i dun need more worries now, not now,
especially that the exam is coming soon.
Well, good thing someone is here with me, i guess if that person is not here, well that person is
kinda sensible at the same time, heartless to guys. i would not know how to handle the situation,
if not for her providing me so many options. So a BIG THANK YOU to YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
Another good news is that i finally might be able to get rid of the baleno, my first baby in Aus,
which has gone thru thick and thin with me, so many mods that i did myself, new stereo, neon light,
sensitive throttle, new 18" rims. Maybe i will post a picture of it later. :)
well i guess that is all for now.
Mood: 50-50
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6:54 AM
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's was everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
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3:32 PM
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Wednessday, 1.28 am
Location: Bar Beach
I am feeling so much better now, after all those gibberish that i have type in my note pad.
Today has been a pleasant day for me. Handed in my 3240 Assignment.
Guess i am abit worried about April, cause her submission is due soon,
and we stay up the whole night doing work, me writing my essay n her drawing her stuff on autocad.
She didn't have much sleep to start with and she still have tons of stuff to do for her 17%.
Sure hope she copes well with her sub, kinda running low on cash right now, maybe it is time to xfer some funds over.
what am i going to do with 2 cars? i got no need for that lol guess i might need to sell it,maybe fund will be available there.
time to save up a bit for sdyney this coming weekend lol
Ooh did i mention that the scenery at Bar Beach is beautiful at night, the sound of the wind, the waves,
just kinda soothing.
Been thinking why i didn't wanna stay in my room so much, maybe because it is fill with tons of painful memories,
maybe that is why i wanna get out, guess from now, that room is just a place for me to sleep and eat, after that time to get out,
lol how i wish i can just move to some where near Bar Beach, that will be nice, i can go suntanning~!! Yipee~!! Oops but i forgot,
it is winter right now. lol Freeze my butt off trying to get myself a nice brown tan :P
Maybe i should start writing something in a book, sort of confession to the sins that i have committed.
A book to tells the ugly past of mine, a scarred past.
To be honest, i was really quite bastard when i was young, toying around with ladies' feelings,
maybe what goes around, comes around.
Everyone has a past, ok i read this at someone else blog but it is true, everyone has a past,
and if a future someone learns about the past of yours and is kinda like ' errmmm i dun know ' this kinda people are not really worth it.
For me, i had have gfs with all kinds of past, married women, divorcee, single mum etc, people ask me, why do i still love them, when they
have such a past? Well the answer is really simple, you love a person for who she is, and not love the person for the past.
The past is there, it is permanently there, what can you do about it? and if you really love that someone, you would care much for his/her past
You love the person for who he/she is, and if the relationship really doesn't work out, fine he/she is not the one for you.
One thing i have learn from all my relationships, that is to forgive and forget, no matter how bad the mistake is, as long as she is honest with you,
you will have a future, you just have to forgive n forget, cause she has taken the most important first step, and that is to confess to you on her mistake.
He/she has already show you that you are the one for him/her, it will be your move to decide what to do, if you really love a person, you will forgive and forget,
I know that when this happen there is a scar, but things will work out if both parties trys hard enough to create many wonderful memories to over-shadow it.
Dammit why am i always back to this topic on relationship. lol i guess i should go and write a book or something.
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12:33 AM
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wednessday, 1 am,
location : bar beach
Just put and entry in on key points to having a successful relationship. those are just simple points but how many people can actually do it?As for me, i dun think i am even qualify to put that entry in, for my last relationship, it is true that i have some bad points, i tried to change, but i guess it is not enough, and when someone wanna end the relationship, they can come up with all kind of excuses. The entry on having a successful relationship is basically what i believed in, but what did i get out of it? Painful memories. I dare to say that i myself is a human being, i do make mistakes at times, i admit those mistakes and try not to make them again. she says that when she needs me i am not there for her, how am i suppose to do that when,
singapore and i am in australia? i been spending heaps of money on phone cards, calling her whenever i can, trying to assure her that i am there for her, seems like it is not enough,i have been clinging on for as long as i could, and even at the start of the relationship,she has been saying that she wants a break up, for as long as i can remember, i clung on to this, shed tears to the point my eyes hurts and no more tears flows, every day, every month. all she says is that our character does not suit each other.
like i say, being in a relationship, we have to compromise, love each other for who we are, but to her, it just doesn't work. Easter holidays, i flew back to accompany her for 2 weeks, just wanted to make sure that she feels secure. Things were fine, but somehow, something was wrong. When i ask her what is wrong, she would say nothing, finally till the day when we are about to break up, she tells me, she is sick of hearing me asking what is wrong, she wants someone who can really understand her, someone who knows what is wrong with her just by looking at her.
Yes, her ex might have been able to do that, but i am not her ex, from my view point, she is just taking me as a sub,for companion, she has been comparing me and her ex since day 1. Everytime, she meets with a problem, she would call her ex first,instead of calling me. Giving me the reason that overseas phone call is expensive. Is that a valid reason? i have already spent so much on the phone bills just $10 more does not makes a difference, if she think calling me is expensive, why can't she just sent a sms to me, and i will call back.
this is just my point of view, of course, she will has her point of view, but right now, i just wanna find some place where i can just shout & yell until i lose my voice.
Now that all this has past, it is time to move on, it seems like all my previous entries has been dwelling on the past. I guess I am the one who couldn't let go.
Well the time has come to move along to my next phase of life and what will that be? Guess i will find out pretty soon :)
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12:31 AM
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Oh no